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not your juliet Ika Marissa Waty; turning eighteen and happier. A very jaunty human who always look on the brighter side of life. However, I have my own set of flaws. In fact, everyone has. All in all, I don't want to be a competitive person cause when I do, I'll stop being happy. I'll be and live as who I am. the crowd Adeline Aini Amalina Aminah Amirah Fadzli Faradea Hamid Hanes Indra Jasma Jenny Jordon Jun Jie Liana Mizah Nad Sabrina Sherry Shiing Sophia Suhaila Syafiqah Sylvia Thomas Tobi spit it out ShoutMix chat widget never look back and regret March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 Credits ©Glamouresque.	Sunday, May 31, 2009 Who will I be? OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG The official MT O level paper is tomorrow! *shakes* I'm extremely frigging horrificly nervous! Really, I swear. Eventhough this will be my second time sitting for the national exam, it doesn't beat sitting for O levels alright. It determines EVERYTHING! Okay enough. I don't know what to say now. I'm just shivering like mad. I've revised what I'm supposed to revise, and will be doing one last revision tonight. Good luck to all O level takers tomorrow, and to myself too. *prays hard* Saturday, May 30, 2009 Part of the list. Dark clouds formed in the morning and it started raining. However, it's not gonna cancel today's plan. Will be catching Monster VS Aliens with him today and oooooh, I can't wait. It's been a while since we last went out. And we're just gonna go to a nearby cinema cause firstly, we're too lazy to go faraway places and secondly, we're lazy to dress up. Haha. That is the reason why we always claimed that we do not have enough clothes in our wardrobe when actually we have more than enough. Lol. We just want something new to wear to a new place. MT paper is in 2 days time. I know it's crazy of me to watch a movie at a time like this but I desperately need to destress myself even for a day so that I won't get agitated or nervous when doing my last revisions, as well as the actual paper. I seriously don't want to retake. At least if I get good grades, one subject is off my shoulders and I'll be able to concentrate on my other subjects. Also, it'll be a waste of my parents money. The Pussycat Dolls Concert is like in 2 weeks time and I'm extremely excited! Can't believe that my mom is a big fan of PCD and bought two tickets for me and herself. Lol. I absolutely have no idea what to wear but who cares, I'll just dance my night away and no one will give a hoot on me. Alright, I want breakfast. Toodles. Friday, May 29, 2009 I drive myself crazy, thinking of you. It was the last day of intensive mother tongue today before the official paper on Monday. Ahhhhh shit. I'm so nervous and I hate the feeling of it. I went for consultation after class, just a short one and I managed to clear my doubts. I'm currently feeling down. However, I need to get myself happy so that when doing such intensive revisions, I won't be disturbed by the problem I'm facing. Hopefully it'll be solve before today ends. Art is my biggest worry. Yesterday, I initially planned to clear my third board but it was not at reach. I need to do a whole new thing, starting with doing a papercut. It takes me hours to complete it and both my thumb and index finger has turned red and became sore. I don't know how the hell am I going to finish up my third board in the fastest period so that I can proceed to the next board. Ah ah ah ah ah I hate this too. Okay, I'll end it here. Goodbye humans. PS: Happy 7th Dear. I love you, more than you know. And yes, please take a look at this cute video. SHOOOOOOOO CUTEZXZXZXZXZXZXZ! Thursday, May 28, 2009 Dress with converse shoes. As you can see, I've renewed almost everthing in my blog, even the tagboard. Lol. I know the previous layout is better, I admit but oh well, I want a change. Lol. LMS sucks. It just wasted a few hours of my life. I rather go to school than being in front of the bloody comp. I'll be doing my art later and I want to chiong, really fast! Haha. Okay bye (: Tuesday, May 26, 2009 Cue the rain. PURE FUN AND I LOVE MY DEAREST 5N2. Though we didn't win, we did our best and we're still winners, all the way. No matter what they say or what they do, they're just jealous cause they don't have the sportsmanship or togetherness like we do. I love you 5Ns! Keep "bombing" the other levels :D Monday, May 25, 2009 Hey love. Had the first intensive mother tongue lesson today and surprisingly, it turned out well. The 5Ns combined with 4E1 and 4E3. We had to mix ourselves among them and I was in btwn this two 4E students whom I've never talked to before for the past 4/5 years in school. Lol. On a brighter note, it wasn't that bad cause we had lots of laughs as we are a huge group. And the good thing was, we studied in a VERY condusive environment; AVA Room, where it is air-conditioned. Haha, big deal. The cheering competition is held tomorrow. That clearly states that there will be no lesson other than noise. Don't be surprise if I lose my voice and own a rockstar-like-voice at the end of the day. You should know the reason why. Haha. On the other hand, I have no idea whether my class will be able to clinch the top three, lest the champion. Therefore, I'll be an optimist tomorrow. No matter what happens, it's all for fun and of course, just have pure fun as this will definitely be my last year in school. I'll also take it as a short break before resuming to the intensive revision. Well, I've realised that almost all the classes have put in a lot of effort in the cheer as they have the urge to win. Well, we'll see how it goes tomorrow and which class is able to grab the trophy and declare themselves as the champion, only for these particular cheering competiton. Lol. All the best to all and to my class too! Jiayou 5N2! :D Bloody goodnight to all (: Saturday, May 23, 2009 So good. Oh yes, what a wonderful Saturday. My cousin came over for a visit and I had pure fun, though I get irritated with her saying the word "swine" for a million times. I was doing my art and seriously, I need to get engaged with it. I'm left behind right now and I need to catch up. Gahhhhhh. Yesterday, I got to catched a last minute movie plan, Night at the Museum 2, with Rica, Hanes and Wall (?). I'll rate that movie 9 out of 10. It was hilarious and I laughed hysterically. After the movie, had lunch but my 4 bucks was wasted. Don't wna elaborate. So heart-wrenching. Lol. MT paper is in less than 2 weeks. I'm nervous. Really nervous. Okay bye. Wednesday, May 20, 2009 Never again. I feel like a huge failure right now. I failed to be how I wanted to be. I thought I could live a happy and positive life but it was all wishful thiking. Instead, it was the opposite of everything. Idk what other ways to make myself feel jovial again. Idk what's the reason behind these causes. Therefore, I failed again, to find the answer to all these doubts. I guess I'll have to change for the better. I'll learn from my mistakes(big ones). And I guess I'll have to try harder. I need a breather. PS: Please don't forget. Tuesday, May 19, 2009 When my mind's void, you're my joy. So far, I'm only satisfied with Combined Humanities and surprisingly, my Malay results. However for my overall, I find my results very bad. A huge disappointment. A failure. It was as if a huge rock just came tumbling down a slope towards me and it's my job to stop the rock before it kills me. Gosh, this just mean that I have to work effing harder for prelims, lest the upcoming O's. O level MT paper will be in less than 2 weeks time and I'm not prepared for it, eventhough I did quite well for MYE's. I'm not gonna be complacent or whatnots. I'm gonna do well for it. Next week will be the teaching and learning week. The school will be having an Inter-Class Cheer Competition and I'm up for it, I think. My only concern is whether my classmates are as enthusiastic as me and ready to bring it on. Lol. I don't care about winning cause I'm taking this opportunity to have a short fun after weeks of being in the stress zone and this is the only time to chill out before the start of intensive classes during the first two weeks of June hols. Not only that, we'll also have extra classes for MT next week for the preparation of the MT paper held on 1st June. Ahh I want this to get it over and done with, like seriously. Of course, I want to have acceptable results too at the end of the day. Okay I want my late lunch right now. Have a good day ahead folks. Monday, May 18, 2009 I'm very disappointed with myself. Wasn't it enough? You should know why. We were given: Two hands to hold. Two legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find<3 Saturday, May 16, 2009 Love sex magic. First and foremost, Happy 16th Birthday to this girl who loves to "shoot" me and hard to make her laugh, so atr the end of the day, I'll be claimed as a lame person as she doesn't get my jokes(!?). Pfft. May all your wishes come true horr. If it doesn't, don't cry lah. There's always a next year, so wait long long. Hahahaha bang bye. Hello people. Hey, I know I'm supposed to be out celebrating with him but it's brought later by one day which is tomorrow as he was vexed due to the match in the morning. Well, maybe he deserves it as his team won. Well, that is inevitable alright. Lol. Yesterday was a blastful time spent with Sherry. Eventhough it was only the two of us, it looked as if there was 10 people instead. Haha. It's been such a long time since I last tasted fun and finally I was able to taste it even within a short time. I've finally completed my mission and do what I'm supposed to do. I'm satisfied, but my only worry left is whether he'll be happy with the outcome or not. We'll see about that tomorrow. Haha. I can't wait for tomorrow. It's been quite awhile since I've got myself into his arms and feel those authentic embrace. Okay, I wna watch Herbie. Goodnight peopleeeeee (: Friday, May 15, 2009 So cool. And MYE'S overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! Would like to take a short break now (: Thursday, May 14, 2009 Got my ass squeezed by a sexy cupid. To the dearest guy above, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! May all your wishes come true and may you be blessed with lots of love. Stay as happy as you are now. I am looking forward for Saturday's celebration. A little nerve-wrecking, but hopefully you're happy with the outcomes. Lol. I love you to the core (: 2 more papers to go and that's it. Tomorrow is the last day and I can't wait to get it over and done with. So far, I'm not confident in passing all but what I know is, I've tried my very best. Labels: Baby you're the truth. Sunday, May 10, 2009 Gotta keep my head held high. My weekend was spent with geog notes. I'm gonna get all the facts inside my head by today and do final preparations tomorrow. If I don't do so, I'm gonna kill myself. I've not touched on maths and physics. I'm feeling very guilty right now. ))))))): Charlie And the Chocolate Factory will be on Channel 5 tonight. I want to watchhhhhhhhhh but I know I can't. I can, if only I'll stay up til midnight to study. Hehe. Last night I slept at 2am just to get Chapter 10 inside my rusty head. I totally forgot everything on the topic development. I need to clear the whole physics book. Pffffffft. And I'm frigging nervous for maths paper 2. Idk how well I did for paper 1 but still, I need to give my nest shot for paper 2 too. Honestly, since I've stepped myself into the Secondary 5 world, making the decision to continue O's after doing well for N level, life has become more stressful and tight scheduled. At the same time, I've become more hardworking. I've never stayed up late just to study cause I'll usually turn in at 10pm, sharp. But now, I have the urge to do well in every subject to bring satisfaction to myself. I want the best for myself, and the people arpund me, especially my parents. They did a good job in bringing me up. Working hard to pay the school fees and paying the exam fees twice. That's why it's a true saying that no parents don't love their children. So, as to repay them, I'm gonna work my butts offfffffff. I'm ending it here. Anw, to my mom, Happy Mother's Day. I Love You (: Friday, May 8, 2009 Living in a shell, hiding from myself. I thought I could sleep in peace tonight but no. Bcse of me not writing down a pair of numbers on the cover page of Chem paper 3, I guess this is the end. I'm screwed, for sure. Damn it. Art was okay and I'm glad that art is off my shoulders and will be able to lighten my load. For the past few days, I've had insufficient sleep due to mugging til midnight. Tonight, I'm gonna sleep early, and I don't care. Had Physics remedial after the papers and it helped, somehow. I'm feeling lethargic and shagged. My hands are aching due to doing art for 3 frigging long hours. Thankfully, I was able to complete it but seriously, it aches so much that I need a massage. The following papers I'm gonna focus on is definitely Geog as it'll be on Tuesday. I've not revised on last year's topic which is rivers and coasts plus development. I think I'm gonna spot topic cause I really have no time to memorise all the topics. We'll see, if there's time, I'll proceed to more chapters. No school on Monday. No idea why. But it's a good thing so that I'll have more time to mug for the remaining papers. I need to chiong on my maths. Gahh, stress is killing me. And others too. Jiayou people. Loves (: Wednesday, May 6, 2009 Every morning, I looked at you and smile. Indeed, it's gonna be one helluva stress week. After revising and memorising, the day has finally come. Had EL Paper 1 and SS Paper today. It was a moderate one for both papers. Managed to do but not sure if I'll ace like how I expect it to be. Sigh, I've tried my best though. Let's just pray hard now, should we? So, tomorrow will be MT Paper 1 as well as Maths Paper 1. Ahh, I'm really stressing out for Maths. Therefore, I'm meeting him later so that he can tutor me. Hoped that I'll be able to clear my doubts with him. At least if I screw up for paper 1, I can do better for paper 2(??). I'll try, since paper 2 is always tougher than the first paper. Another thing that I'm panicking is art. I think I'm not gonna be able to complete the 5 boards. Shit, my time management sucks this time round. At least I need to come up with my final design and that's good enough, I guess. Gahh, everyone's stressing out and they're enraged with hot fire. Bloody hell, how I wish it was O levels. Pft. Okay I gotta start mugging now. xoxo Sunday, May 3, 2009 I will love you more than that. Just one bloody word I wish to describe about today. Let me spell it out too; STRESS. Bloody hell, my brain's contaminated. Well, that's a good thing but I'm having a headache. Maybe this is due to sucking all the SS infos inside my tofu brain. Mind you, this is only one chapter. I need to squeeze in another chapter. Damn it. On the other hand, maths is being such a bitch. I can't recall any of the topics taught frm sec 3 and 4. Okay it was my fault laaah. Lastly, I couldn't get myself engaged to art. The sight of it makes me dread and the paper is like on this coming Friday?! I do have a sense of urgency but not for arrrrrt. God, forcing myself to do art is as good as being a bulemic; poking a toothbrush in my mouth, puking out all the food that I just ate. I know, grosss. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh. Saturday, May 2, 2009 It's all gravy. Yesterday, I went for a family gathering which falls on Labour Day. It was great to finally meet up with my cousins whom I last met 2 or 3 months ago???? As usual, had makan sessions but I'm not supposed to eat my fill as I'm having a dinner date with him on that night. Met him at 6pm and headed to Marina Square. Had our dinner at Secret Recipe. It was a fussy choice as neither of us wanted to choose. Lol. I had Lasagne. And omg, it was sooooooooo delicious, like seriously. While he, had Grilled Chicken. Then had Oreo Cheescake for dessert. That's an extra yum. Right after dinner, we headed to Suntec and walked all over the place and landed ourselves at the Fountain of Wealth. Honestly, I'm lazy to elaborate. Might as wll I shouldn't say it in the first place. Haha. So, this whole weekend will be used up for studies. MYE starts next Wed and I'm frigging nervous as it'll be EL paper 1 and SS paper. Ahh, how I wish that there's 48 hours in a day instead of 24. And how I wish that there's 120 seconds in a minute instead of 60. However, I have to accept the fact that those wishes will NEVER EVER come true. ): Therefore, I have to work my butts hard. Damn hard. I'll be memorising my SS, practising my Maths and also going through of EL and MT. I'm gna work doubly hard to pay all the days that I've wasted. For example, like last week. I should have done my art but I landed myself in Orchard instead. Lol. Oh yes, speaking of art, I NEED to work on it, FAST! I need a mugging partnerrrrrrrrrr. Happy Belated 6th, baby. I love you (: