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not your juliet Ika Marissa Waty; turning eighteen and happier. A very jaunty human who always look on the brighter side of life. However, I have my own set of flaws. In fact, everyone has. All in all, I don't want to be a competitive person cause when I do, I'll stop being happy. I'll be and live as who I am. the crowd Adeline Aini Amalina Aminah Amirah Fadzli Faradea Hamid Hanes Indra Jasma Jenny Jordon Jun Jie Liana Mizah Nad Sabrina Sherry Shiing Sophia Suhaila Syafiqah Sylvia Thomas Tobi spit it out ShoutMix chat widget never look back and regret March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 Credits ©Glamouresque.	Tuesday, April 28, 2009 You came in and knock me on my face. I'm frigging stressssssssssssssssssssss. It feels as if all my hair are gonna fall and my head will grow bigger. I can see pimples protruding out of my skkin. Ahhhh what's happening to me (?!). Okay breathe. Look on a brighter note................. Okay I can't think of any positive things to keep myself alive. MYE is starting on next Wednesday. I gotta get my brain to work doubly harder than common test as for all the subjects, we are tested on eveything, from sec 3 all the way up to sec 5. Gosh this is so nerve-wrecking. When I reminisced back on my N level period, time passed by damn fast and we were cheering our hearts out after the last paper outside the hall. Also, the adrenaline rushed on the day of the result and here I am now in Sec 5, sitting for the O's this year. Gosh, I seriously can't wait for that moment when O's is officially over. For now, I have to work my butts off in order to get myself satisfied with the results at the end of the day. I just realised that the O level MT Paper is like another month away, and I can bet that I'm not ready, especially for Paper 2. Therefore, I have to work hard for my Paper 1. Shoot, hopefully I'll get A2. Last resort, a B3 and maybe will reconsider whether to retake. Hopefully not. We also got back our mole test papers and Mr Ong was very unhappy ): Gladly to say, I'm among those who passed. Well, I scored 25 out of 30, which made me unsatisfied cause I lost marks due to carelessness. Dang, that ALWAYS happens to me. I have 2 tests on Thurs; Maths and Phy. Wish me luck peopleeee. I am so tired but can't help it; I'll feel guilty if I don't study. Work hard okay? Jiayou! (: Sunday, April 26, 2009 Never knew that I would fall for you this hard. Yes, it's Sunday and I cooped myself in the room almost the whole day to do my freaking art, as well as homeworks and some revisons. I somehow realised that I'm juggling my subjects, hell lot. Also, I'm way behing time for my art. I'm still stuck at my first board and I gotta get kicking my ass faster. Gosh, I'm suffocating. Please, I'm gonna breathe the world to myself after MYE. If only it was O level. Pfffft. Surprisingly, I did well for my EL oral. Never expected the scores the be that high. Maybe this is one of my strongest link to pull me up for EL as I'm pretty bad with both paper 1 and 2. I need need need to get myself engaged in my studies right now. Oh god but I just can't. Fpr example, now, what the hell am I using the comp when I'm supposed to coop myself in the room doing my schoolwork?!?!?! But still, I can't cast myself with schoolwork too much as it'll make me more tense. I'm a person who gets stress easily you know. Lol. Was supposed to have dinner with him tonight but he insisted that I stay at home and do my art and stuffs, as I keep complaining to him. Haha. However, it'll be on next weekend instead. I've not meet him for two weeks now. Can't wait to jump on him. Lol. I gotta get my butt to the room and start doing some revisions or art right now, or else, I won't be able to sleep peacefully tonight and I'm feeling full of guilt. Haha. Goodnight humans. PS: I miss him, seriously. :P Friday, April 24, 2009 Show me what you got. Hahahahahahaha hi. I'm too caught up with schoolwork this week with class tests almost everyday. It's less than 2 weeks till MYE's first paper which is on the 6th of May. I'm screwwwwwwwwwwwed. I haven't start on my proper revisions, and I'm not engaged in doing my MYE art paper 2. Fck, who the hell sabotage us?! Gahhhhhh. So, in a way of destressing myself for awhile, I catched 17 Again and it was hilarious! Two thumbs uppppppppppppp! Okay, that's enough of fun. My Saturday is definitely gone just like that. I'll be doing my art in the morning and head to my aunt's house in the afternoon. Even if I have the time at night, I'll be soooo lazaaaay. No plans on Sunday but it's a BIG maybe that I'll be out. Ahhhhhhhhhhhh, once again, I'm screwwwwwwed. Okay I'm feeling so shagged right now. I need to get in contact with music right now. Goodnight readers! (: Wednesday, April 22, 2009 In less than 10 minutes, I'll be meeting Farhana under my block and head to Admiralty to meet Sherry and Yanie. From there, we'll head to school to have our NAPFA 5 stations done. Hopefully it'll go smoothly. Pray hard that I'll be able to do my incline, for the sake that this will be the last year I'll be in this stinking school. 2 tests down, 2 more to go on Friday. Tomorrow will be one long fucking day, plus fucking tired. After SST, will be having Phy class with 4E4 under Mr Cheng which will end at 6.30pm. Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Head home and start mugging hard for next day's tests. Tonight will be doing homework which needs to be handed up by tomorrow. Gosh, even the weekends are booked with school stuffs. When the hell will I ever have time for myself? It's okay Ikaaaaaaaaaa, relax. Breatheeeeeeeeeee. During EL period today, Mr Lee showed us a video which inspires me, a whole lot. It's about this man who is limbless. Though he's different, he's still like any ordinary human. In fact, he can do more things than any human could despite the fact that he has no arms and legs. The moral is, don't give up (: XOXO Monday, April 20, 2009 Besides your lips, where is your fav. spot to get kissed? - my forehead and cheeks. How did you feel when you woke up this morning? -surprisingly, very fresh liao. Who was the last person you took a photo with? -Sherry Would you consider yourself spoiled? -errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Will you ever donate blood? -Sure, why not? Have you ever had a friend of the opp. sex? -Yes -.- Do you want someone dead? -NO. What does your last text message say? -Then you now at Mdm Irda's house ? What are you thinking right now? -Thinking which website I should go next (???) Do you want someone to be with you right now? -Yes ): What was the time you went to bed last night? -11pm Where did you buy the tee you're wearing now? -No idea, it used to be my bro's. Is someone on your mind right now? -Definitely. Who was the last person who texted you? -Again, Sherry. 10 lucky people to do this: 1.Sherry 2.Sophia 3.Nad 4.Amalina 5.Mizah 6.Liana 7.Jasma 8.Hanes 9.Hamid 10.Indra Who is no.9 having a relationship with? -NO IDEAAAAAAAAA. Is no.3 a male or female? -Female. If no.7 and no.1 get together, would it be a good thing? -Seems very wrong. What is no.1 studying about? -Whatever that I'm studying (????) When was the last time you chatted with them? -This few days or weeks? Is no.5 single? -Ya think?! Say something about no.2. -thick skinned. Lol :D What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being together? -Hahahahahaha the world will go chaotic! Describe no.10. -a good friend (: What will you do if no.6 & no.7 fight? -stop them lohhhhhhhh. Do you like no.5? A whole lottttttttttt. :D tagged by SHI YONG! :D Knock you down. Remembering that we were just acquantainces once, but now, friends for 5 years now. She was always there for me and never left me in a lurch. She taught me how to be strong and most importantly, I was never alone in this journey. Sherry, this is for you. I lololololololove you! I'm currently hooked up with 2 songs by Keri Hilson and Beyonce. Oooooooooh, love these two gorgeous ladies. Okay, that was irrelevant, I know. So, nothing much happened today, except for some who has orals after school. Mine will be tomorrow and hell yeah, I'm nervous alright. Not really, cause I only loathed one part; PICTURE DISCUSSION. Okay, as long as I know the fomat, I'll be fineeeeeeee, I guess. I'll be having my NAPFA 5 staions next on Wednesday. Another nerve-wrecking moment for one station; INCLINE PULL UPS. Seriously, I need to get skilled on this to get myself up. Ah wth, this will be my last year and I'll just give my best shotttt. *poof* Okay I'm done. XOXO Saturday, April 18, 2009 Don't forget. I'm still mooooooooooooooooooooooooody. Yesterday was Unexpected Day. Eveything that happened was unexpected. Firstly, the results for SYF. Contemp Dance managed to clinched the Silver, yet again for the third time. Congratulations. Though it was an unsatisfaction for most of us, at least we sustained the Silver position. Okay, that was one. Followed by my class winning the Best Class Award for March, which brought shock not only on me, but my classmates plus my form teacher too. As the chairperson, I had to walk down the aisle to retrieve the certificate. Bad news, there will be an art exam for MYE. Damn it. I'm glad to say that I did well for my 2.4km run. Though it's not that good, I'm glad I passed. In the afternoon, we had Speech Day and I was a performer. A conflict happened in the Aaha Room. Don't wish to elaborate but in my views, just wna say that I won't let a man be a border between the malay and contemp dancres as we are in one society. No offence. The performance was good then headed home. Though it's a Saturday, I cooped myself at home as I had no plans, plus I had no joy to have fun. I just wish it'll be over soon. I'm so sad ): Thursday, April 16, 2009 Have you ever? I'm feeling moody, sad, down and whatever words which defines not happy. Please don't ask me why. But don't worry, I'm fine. The results of the SYF was released at 4pm today and we'll know the results tomorrow. I am frigging nervous. Really. Also, I'll be having my NAPFA 2.4km run. Wish me all the best. I just hate to go on like this. Tuesday, April 14, 2009 A standing ovation. Hello earthlings! I know, it's time I should update on something. As you know, I had my SYF Judging Day today and I'm glad to say that it went well, excluding the cock ups etc. I'm told that we'll get the results by Thursday and hopefully(cross fingers), we'll get the what we expected it to be. We managed to catch some performances from other schools and they're not that bad too. I guess it'll be a tough job for the judges. Gosh, I hate the feeling when you're at the side stage, getting ready for your turn. Damn nerve-wrecking. However, all of us gave our all and did our best. Through the four months of strenuous training, through good and bad, pains and tortures, it had finally come to an end. Once we get back in school, Ms Fong treated us to Pizza Hut. Oooooh. Thank you so muchhh. So basically, we skipped school today and we were even exemted from SST/remedial. Lol. Though I went to SYF, the truth is, I was sick, til now. I fell sick on Sunday, on the day we had the rehearsal. I kept sneezing and thought that it was either a minor cold or sinus but it got worst in the afternoon. I watched "Confessions of a Shopaholic" with him at the cinema located at Iluma, beside Bugis Street. It was a fantastic movie. I know its kinda outdated of me to watch that movie recently but I didn't have the time to go to the movies. Haha. Okay that aside. I feel like not going school tomorrow. Bascally because I'm tired and I'm lazyyyyy. However, I know I won't dare to do so. Lol. MYE is like less than a month left. I have alot of chapters to memorise and study which is a must to suck everything in my intsy-wintsy brain. I don't mind if there's 20 darn chapters in one subject but no. I have 5 chapters to do so (screammmmmmmmmms). Okay I wanna sleep the day away. I need to rest. Toodlessssssss. XOXO Friday, April 10, 2009 Moments of weakness. As I've said earlier, I declared to myself that I'll make Good Friday into Homework Day but instead, it turned out to be Lazy Day. I couldn't get myself engaged to my schoolwork but stuck myself to the television. Gosh, another distraction in the room. The plasma gotta go. JUST KIDDING! I'll never abandon my birthday present okay, no matter how much it distracts me (: However, no matter how lazy I was, I managed complete almost all my homeworks. I completed several topics in my Chem TYS, as well as English compre excluding summary and Maths. I need to buck up on my art, like frigging fast. Way faster than Road Runner. Lol. After a day's rest, I'm heading back to school tomorrow for dance practice. SYF is like in another.. 4 days (!?). Gahh, I'm freaking out. It'll be a full dress rehearsal and another wake-up-early on Sunday. AHHHHHHHHHHHH. Gosh, I'm sucha a busy person, am I? Lol. Okay I'm having a headache now. I'm popping in some panadols. Goodnight readers :D We said let go, but I kept holding on. Thursday, April 9, 2009 Then we all stand together this one time. Euphoria was in the air. The Sports Carnival held in school today was a blast, eventhough I didn't participate in any events. Without a doubt, Red house was the champion this year. Well, it was expected. Followed by Yellow house running up in second, Green house in third and last but not least, Blue house. Overall, it was a great event that was meant to be kept as memories, especially when you are graduating. I can tell that there was some moments of roughness and it was unfair but at the end of the day, the sportsmanship has to be there at all times. No school tomorrow(yay!). So I can stay in bed for a little bit longer and catch the awesome tv programmes on channel 5. Proceed to homeworks in the afternoon all the wayy to, depends on how many homeworks I have to do okay. Lol. This is specially to the malay dancers; Congratulations for clinching the Silver for this year's Singapore Youth Festival. Well done girls! (: Wednesday, April 8, 2009 Super duper love. I've been busy lately. As usual, with schoolwork and dance. Omg, SYF is like in less than a week and we changed our music back to the original one yesterday. God, it was such a drama til the 4 dance teachers-in-charge had to discussed this, along with a "visitor". In the end, they got their bids and hopefully it works out and pays off this time round. Specially for this week, today is the last day of schoolday for this week as we'll be having the Sports Carnival tomorrow, followed by Good Friday which means, it'll be a public holiday. I'm currently stressing out with dance this whole week. I'm so frigging worried and frustrated with the juniors at the same time. Honestly, with the attitude they have towards dance, I highly think they don't deserve to be in the SYF. I don't care what they say, cause I'm glad that I'll be standing down soon and it'll be my last year this year. So, all the best okay? Taking things for granted just because you're in SYF. So what? You're taking things lightly. You think you dance sooooo nice is it? God, you gotta be kidding me. I'm abashed to have you girls in the contemp group, lest being in dance society. I guess it's too late to say all this cause it's less than seven days to SYF. I'm not sure whether it's time for their wake up call. Other than being frustrated, I'm not confident at all. Not confident of getting that Gold. The malay dancers have gone for their SYF on Monday. Upon hearing their experiences, I guess it's time to push the panic button and work our butts off. I just don't "feel" it, yet (??). Gah, this is infuriating. I've got loads of homeworks and revisons lining up for me during the weekend. I've declared that Good Friday will be my Homework Day, that is if I don't have any last minute plans. Saturday is booked as I need to do my art, FAST! The deadline for the third board is due on next Tues, which falls on the same day as my SYF Judging Day. And oh yes, did I tell you that we're supposed to be in school by 6am (?!). Godddd, I'll have to wake up at 5??? And I'll be dragging myself to school, yawning all the way. We'll be having the rehearsal on this coming Sunday at UCC. It'll be a full dress rehearsal and we'll have to reach school by 6.45am. Ahhhh, my beauty sleeps are all gone. NOOOOO! It's okay, tahan Ika. It'll all be over before you know it. However, I need to buck up on my studies instead after standing down. MYE will be in 4 weeks time I think and I'm taking it like the O levels. This is like the prelims of the prelims. Get it? Ah nevermind. Guess I'll end it here. I don't ever want to bore my readers if I were to go on. Lol. Have a good day ahead (: Saturday, April 4, 2009 Can't get over you now, no matter what I do. It has been a hectic week for me. I had to juggle my time between schoolwork and personal things, making sure that they won't get mix up. Of course, I had to prioritise my studies first. On top of that, things got worst. Dance was like F. Don't wanna elaborate to prevent from my anger acting up again. Still, I have to work equally hard due to SYF being in another week left. I'm frigging tired and shagged. The week that I've been through was the worst in my life, yet a beneficial one at the same time. Though I cried every night thinking how to get things straight, all I could do was pray and hope hard that I'll get over and done with. Eventually, it did. I'm glad that it is over. Maybe all this thoughts was the cause of me having difficulties sleeping with ease these few nights. I hope I'll sleep back to normal from tonight onwards. When I couldn't sleep, I'll cry again. I know, sensitive right. But I was more to frust. Frutrated with myself for not managing my life well. I wanted a fruitful teenage growing years which I will go through only once but it seems I'm like any ordinary typical teenage girl going through the ups and downs of life. Well, it's okay. At least I've tried. Initially, there was supposed to be a the girls outing today. The one who initiated the outing was our darling IRA FALISHA, yet she was the one who cancelled it. Pfft. Nvmlah, soon aye? Can't wait to meet you girls up! (: I just hope for a better day tomorrow. Like someone's saying, "Every sunrise brings us hope, so hope for the best." XOXO