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not your juliet
Ika Marissa Waty; turning eighteen and happier. A very jaunty human who always look on the brighter side of life. However, I have my own set of flaws. In fact, everyone has. All in all, I don't want to be a competitive person cause when I do, I'll stop being happy. I'll be and live as who I am.
the crowd
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Aini
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Aminah
Amirah
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Jasma
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Jordon
Jun Jie
Liana
Mizah
Nad
Sabrina
Sherry
Shiing
Sophia
Suhaila
Syafiqah
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Tobi
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Friday, October 31, 2008
Intoxicte me, I'm a lush.  Okay I assume that my mom has already reached Shibuya, Japan. It must be so cold there. How I wish I was there ): Well, the nightmare wasn't as bad as how I think it would be. Ironically, it's fun. LOL :D I've done the bed, fold the clothes. I'm only left with hanging the clothes which is now in the washing machine. Hehe. And yessa, one more week left of bridging class and it's overrrrrrrrr! Only then can I start work. There goes in my cash money! :D Meeting him tomorrow I think and we'll be doing homework. I know, homework (?!) Well, yes. I got alot of hoeworks lining up on the weekends. I got English compo to complete, some Geog questions and a few pages to be completed from the Phy WB. If there's time, maybe catch a movie (???) And I'm dying to watch "The Coffin". Idk why but it looks horrific(: Okay I wna hang the clothes now. Toodless~! Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Without you by my side.  School was pathetic. Only those who attended school today will have the same "pissed-off" feeling with me. I only enjoyed Chem and Phy period where we did practicals. :D And I burnt my finger in the Chem Lab ): School has been atrocious lately. Hope that it'll end sooon! My moms gna fly to Japan tmr night and I'll be sending her to the airport. Omg and that is where my nightmare will begin. Hope that it'll not be as bad as I expected. *cross fingers and pryas hard* Will be chilling at Civic with Sherry and Soph later. Meeting *coughs* at 5.30pm. Can't wait to see *coughs* and hug *coughs* so tightly! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD Tuesday, October 28, 2008
I'm throwing away the pain.  I just checked my e-mail and I got the job! But I'll be happier if I were to work in retails ): But it's okay. I'll only be working for one and a half months. At least something than being dry and envy seeing people shop til they drop. School was okay as usual. Don't need to elaborate. My mom's gonna fly to Japan in 2 days and it's all up to me. I'm the mistress of the house, for 5 days. AHHHHHHHHHH! That means that I'll have to do the laundry and stuffs. Easy to say, like a housewife (-.-") BUT excluding cooking okay! Omg hope that time flies VERY fast so that this nightmare will be over for me. Try imagining your mom being away for a performance and you'll have to take care of the house, living with 3 men????! Please pray hard for me so that I'll overcome this and give me strength to do this all by myself! Amin. Monday, October 27, 2008
Thank God I found you.  I know it's been ages since I last post. Sry for neglecting you blogg! I was busy and my bros won't let me use the comp! ): Alot of thing has happen and I don't wish to elaborate but just to let you knw, I think I'm falling in love (: That may be a good sign, and maybe not. But we're giving ourselves more time alright. The interview on Saturday went well. I can still remember how nervous I was. But in the end, it turned out fine. Maybe I'll start work in mid November. Tomorrow will be the 2nd week of bridging class. Yessaaaaaaaaaaa! And all I wish for is to get over and done with bridging class and stay happy with my love pill (: Wednesday, October 22, 2008
I'm already spoken, our love is broken.  Headed to Woodland Mart after school. But of course I went home first and change my clothings. I even took a bath. Hehe. I wonder why Ahmad seek for Sherry's help when he's from Express while we're from Normal Acad (question markS). Anyway, we just gave a hand in whatever we know. So don't blame us for not knowing what you want us to know. Lol. Also, a moment where I forced myself to face up to him. It wasn't painful but a feeling of unsatisfaction. It makes me want to face up to him but as you know, I'm just a coward. Sherry gave me a small lecture though. Heh. Had lunch/dinner at Fork and Spoon and went to Causeway. Met Sherry's mummy and I bought a dress which costs 20 bucks specially for the interview this Saturday. Big deal. (-.-") Cause seriously, I have no idea what to wear for the interview. Like what they say "First impressions are important". Yah whateverrrrrrrr. Okay I need to bring a rag for tmr's 'Use your hand Campaign'. Leceh ahhhhhhhhhhhh. So, it will be last day for the other levels while the sec 4NAs are still stuck in school. But I also heard that the whole sec 3 level will have classes on the first 2 weeks of the hols. okay, maybe their is some fairness here. LOL :D Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Once you lose it, that's it.  School was very draggy. Every lesson ended late and I felt sleepy the whole day. Did practicals for both Phy and Chem lessons. Chem was the only period which excites me as we get to see chemical reactions, which of course, amazes me. Mcm jakun gitu. I'm currently having a splitting headache while the stomach grumblesssssssssss. How I wish I could have Seoul Garden right now. Idk why. It's just a sudden crave. I'll be having my job interview on Saturday morning. Dang, I am so ^&%^% nervous. Nad and Sherry are tagging along, as well as Sara who is also going for the interview. All I want is to get that job and earn $$. Meeting cousins in an hours time. Khairul owe us a starbucks each for idk what reasin. he was the one who offered the treat. Oh well, rezeki takmo ditolak. Okay I want to grab a bite now bye! (: Monday, October 20, 2008
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer.  School was as cool as usual. Not saying that school is cool but just a term to explain calmness. That's because only 29 out of 46 students were present today. That is to say that the number "29" is the estimation of the number of pupils coming back for sec 5. Studied a little on situational writing O level syllabus. Recaped on the topics during Maths. Played soccer (??) for PE and I swear there was alot of inside jokes which caused non-stop laughters. This is only between me, Sherry, Soph, Amirah and Shafeqa. (gigglessssss) Had recess and Lights for the following period. Mr Teo talked about some things affecting our future asn stuffs which leads to falling on deaf ears. Some even fall fast asleep. Haha. Last but not the least, electives for the last three periods. You know what we did? Nothing. Serious, nothing. You could do anything within the three periods. I chosed to talked with my friends and Tok Guru regarding next year's art. I gotta find out that there was a change of the format, which was way easier. I managed to sleep for the remaining 30 mins and (school bell rings), it's time to go homeeeeeeeeeee! (: Will be having dinner with Sherry and Faiz later, I think. And school's gna end at 2.25pm tomorrow. Shitzxzxzxzxzxzxz. Sunday, October 19, 2008
Is anybody listening?  It's raining heavily and I was supposedly suppose to be in the train by now on the way to Kallang for dance sessions at PA but I decided to give myself another week to think through. I'm still confused whether to stay suffocated for the sake of passion or let it go. So here I am now, sitting all alone at home, blogging a post while listening to Danity Kane's new hit single. Ah shit, tomorrow I'm starting school again. (-.-") Have to get back to study mode. Say goodbye to waking up at 11am in the morning. I'll be waking up wayyyy earlier than that. Pfft. Heavy weight at my back which will cause backaches. It's okay, Ika. I'll be only for 3 weeks. Time will pass by very fast without realising. And of course, I'll start work soon, I think. I've not received any phone calls from don't know who I'm suppose to get it from but concerning the job. I would be so nervous if I were to attend the interview. Ah lotsa lucks for me! (: Saturday, October 18, 2008
 Graduation day was sucky. It was damn bored and I was't filled with tears at all. Graduates received a medal each (-.-") Took whole lots of pics during the tea reception. Sheesh, all I could say was, whacked. Went on a date with Sham and I swear he was my worst date. I wld never want to go out with him again. He was damn irritating and he humiliated me, especially in the MRT. Don;t wish to elaborate more but get this straight; I will never... Finally, cleared things up and I'm done. I could put my mind at ease now and move on. Get over it. I feel like quitting PA. I feel leftout and unwelcomed everytime I come for its session. Also, most of its population are of its people. Not being racist but I'm not the one being selfish. I was always looked down upon and I couldn't do anything. Most of the dancers are from NTU and NUS. I only have a few friends, and they're chinese. They would talk in their own language in front of me. How would I not feel uncomfortable? I don't know, cause it will be a miss if I were to quit. There are a hole lot of advantages and disadvantages. I'm so confused right now. ): Thursday, October 16, 2008
 Yesterday's class pit was the greatest (!!) I had lotsa fun but there was some unpredictable moments which made me upset and therefore, lead me to a disastrous action. Don't wish to elaborate on the unhappy moments. I was suppose to put all the sorrows aside right? I rent a bike and went cycling with Sherry and Soph. However, it was overtimed due to Khairul taking my bike without my permission. Pfft. Oh well, he paid the fines though. Actually, I don't know where to start it off with. :D The food was great as everyone had their part of brging food and cooking it. I can estimate that half or more of the class population attended the pit and I'm happy about it. I seriously don't know what to talk about yesterday but all I can say was; IT WAS ONE OF THE GREATEST DAY OF MY LIFE! Tuesday, October 14, 2008
It's a little late for conversations.  At last, I shopped till I dropped on a Monday afternoon. Sherry and I went around the whole town and bought stuffs. Here's a list of what i bought:
All of this items cost up to a total of 70 bucks. (screams) AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Now I'm only left with less than 50 bucks in my raya bank. (criesssssssss) But it's okay, I'll be working soon so it'll be able to fill up my loss. Haha. In the evning, met my parents at Causeway and I got myself a new handphone. Dang, thank God I got a new handphone. nevertheless, the old handphone was a big help for the past two years but now, it's dying slowly but I've got a new replacement now. I got Nokia N76. I wanted Sony Ericsson W980 but dad did not want to pay any amount at all so the only handphone that I could trade in without paying is the handphone I have now. ): I'm stil getting used with it. I CAN'T WAIT FOR TMR'S PIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sunday, October 12, 2008
I want you.  I'm feeling lethargic right now. But I'm able to take it though. Maybe it's due to me hogging on the phone with Sham last night till 5 in the morning. :D And oh yeah, he asked me out on a date (laughs out loud). Of course, I said yes. Haha. Went raye with fam and I'm so sick of it right now. Nad recommended me a job at a restaurant in Botanic Garden as a waitress. I needed a job anyway during this holidays aye. At least I get to do something rather than slacking at home or burn my pocket. It's time for me to earn my own money through my own hardwork and sweat. It's quite worth it though and Nad is arranging a meeting for us. which is Sherry, Ira and I (: Will be heading to Ang Mo Kio tomorrow to have my ez-link repalced and will be shopping for an outfit for the class pit, I think. Insyaallah, I'll get a new handphone by tomorrow evening too (prays hard). Okay bye. Saturday, October 11, 2008
Oh shit, shake that ass me, move it like a gypsy.  I'm currently listening to the song titled "swing" by Savage while chatting with Khai. He's sending me the raya pics and claimed that I was kental cause til now, I haven't receive the raya pics. (-.-") Will be visiting neighbours as dad is not working today. Raya with cousins tomorrow and will be visiting the Sembawang area. (: And of course, shopping on Monday with Sherry. I want to find and outfit for the class pit. perhaps a dress? Ahah not sure but this time, I'll try not to hesitate (?) Maybe, a flair skirt too which I've been dying for since the past few months? Brother's friends will be coming over soon and it'll be a huge clan. Sheesh -.-" Okay toodles people. Labels: Now drop it low and let me see your hips swing. Friday, October 10, 2008
 I just came back from JB :D I intended not to hesitate on what I was craving for but it didn't happen. I wanted to shop til I drop but I didn't. It was all because the things that I wanted was too expensive and over my budget. In the end, I only got myself a tank top and accessories. (-.-") Oh well, it's okay. I can still shop at S'pore, which is a whole lot better and worth it. I'm planning to buy a dress for the class pit on the 15th. Hope that I'll find one within the days left before the pit. Will be hanging out with Sherry and Bobo in the evening as we're tired of rotting at home. No idea where we're heading but as long as we're not bored, that's fine. Went raya with the girls yestearday, excluding Sheeq as she has something on. We went to 7 houses since afternoon and came home at around 9pm. Well, it was fun but not as fun when the full force is there. Will be doing my ezlink on Monday, I guess. Okay that's all bye. Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Moving closer and closer.  Only God knows how miserable I was when I was at Ang Mo Kio just wanting to make a new ezlink but it was all fcked up just because of my photo. Don't wish to elaborate cause I'm too pissed. Hung out with Bobo and friends, which includes Mizzuan, Sharul, Syafiq and a bunch of sec 3s. And 'he' was there. Well, who cares. It can't stop me from hanging out with my friends right? Heard that he's gna main baju (???) Sherry was glad that I wasn't with him because of the main baju thingy. Well, I admit I don't wna have a bad boyfriend. No offence but I don't like troubles and hates troublemakers. Therefore, I try to be among those who are not troublemakers. It's not that I don't make mistakes, but I know I don't create troubles. (: I seriously can't wait for the class pit which is held on the 15th at East Coast. It's been quite awhile since I've seen my classmates, other than the usual ones I usually meet like Sherry and Bobo. I miss them hell lots. I'm gna miss them even more next year, when bot all are going up to sec5. This is the only last time that we're gna spend together as a class. Something like a class bid goodbye (??) Alright, toodles. I never needed you for judgements.  Heading to Ang Mo Kio in an hour later to get my new ez-link. Damn, can die without ez-link. It would be so inconvenient and you'll need to use coins to take the bus and more $$ to take the train, eventhough you'll get back $1. Sheesh -.-" I'm worried that Ira will be late, as usual, and I hate late-comers. No matter how much I give an earful to her, she still remains the same. Maybe she wasn't born with the sense of urgency. Lol. You may think I'm bad-mouthing her but I'm not. It's a fact about her. She doesn't care if she reads this. She's heard me say this a thousand times. But I'm still puzzled why she can't be punctual, even for once. Told ya she wasn't born with the sense of urgency. Wonder how she will be few years later. How will she be attending interviews or work??? Haha :D The worst thing is, she's back at home sleeping (zzzzzzzzz) at a time like this. And if she's gna be late later, I swear she'll get the worst scolding from me. Or, maybe I should just go out later. Actually, I've tried that a few times, but she's still late as ever. I remember once, I had to wait for her for about one and a half hour (???) Crazy girl *rolls eyes* Okay I can't believe I'm posting about her. Bleaaaaaaaaah~! (few mins later) I just gave Ira a call and I gave her a warning, in a very serious tone. She claims that I was scary but I wasn't convince cause no matter how scary I put myself into, she doesn't change. This was the conversation: Ika: Ira, later what time? Ira: Err, 2.40 at BnS. Ika: Make sure you don't be late ah! I swear if you're late, I'm gna pancung your head!! Ira: Omg you sound so scary! Ika: Scary your head. Scary also still the same! Eh pls lah Ira, the thing closes at 4 you know. Ira: Ah kaykay bye. *toooooooooooooooooooooooot* She hung up on me -.-" Okay that's a lil- something about ira. Toodles (: Tuesday, October 7, 2008
 Catched HouseBunny with Sherry yesterday night. It was worth it and I don't mind watching it again cause it was so damn hilarious! And when I mean hilarious, it got the whole cinema burst into laughters! Well, I brought Sherry out as she has gone through a heartbreaking moment of her life. However, I envy her for being strong and holding back her tears to keep things maintain how it is but I know that inside of her, it was shattered and bleeding pofusely. Time will heal it and I'm sure you'll find your true one someday, one day. So we're all back to square one. Soph, Sherry and I are all swinging. We're not gna let the opposite gender be an issue in our lifes. I'll be having a break for 2 weeks, which means not attending school as N level is overr(!!) My class is organising a class pit on the 15th. Can't wait! And hope it goes on. Also, a class raya this coming Friday. So, if you happen to see a big group of Malay people creating havoc, that's us! (: Toodles for now (: Saturday, October 4, 2008
 It hurts to think how you and your ex-flame went separate ways, but it hurts even more when you found out the truth why you and your ex-flame went separate ways. No matter how much I wish that it'll be back to normal, it was impossible. The only thing I could do now was to move on with life. September has been a hectic month, especially for most couples. I've experienced the pain, cause I'm one of the victim. I felt useless and stupid. He may be out of my mind now, but I can't forget what he did to me which still lingers in my heart. I've pulled him out of my heart and now and he's part of history. But still, my heart feels heavy whenever I think about the unpredictable moments. It was too much to handle, and he was too much. I don't even know if I was used by him. All his sweet-talking was convincing. Or maybe he was just born to be a sweet-talker-motha-fcker. I don't wish to elaborate what we did together, cause it's all crushed and burn. Now, I'm traumatised to fall in love again. I could no longer feel safe around boys. They're just dangerous. Cause in the end, the girls will get hurt. But maybe not all are as ruthless as I thought. I just have to be patient and let fate do the work. For now, let time heal all wounds. Friday, October 3, 2008
Raya pics (:    Shafiq Khairul Amir Fiqah IrahOne thing in mind that I wish to shout it out loud; N LEVEL IS OFFICIALLY OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR! *JUMPS UP AND DOWN* I'm glad that I can put my mind at ease now as I've done my best to get through this marathon and I did it. I'm only left with the results in December where I'll definitely be nervous about. It's the 3rd day of Raya and it doesn't feel like one. Oh well, I'm lazy to blog lah. Bye. Thursday, October 2, 2008
All boxed up. It's the second day of Raya but I forced myself not to celebrate cause I'll be sitting for my last 2 papers tomorrow and it'll be finally over. Raya 2008 was great, and kecoh as ever. Green packets keeps filling my clutch bag despite being old enough to receive one. Lol :D Euphoria was in the air; Laughters and flashes was the surrounding I was in. Couldn't ask for more for a great Raya. I kept myself busy by seeking forgiveness from my parents, aunts, uncles and my granny and taking photographs with my cousins. As I have a BIG family, it was quite cramp in my aunt's hse and the heat kept rising. However, it doesn't affect our wonderful celebration. The best part of all is, the FOOD! It is never complete without lontong and rendang on a festive season like Hari Raya. Took a family photo and I swear there was alot of inside jokes during the photo sessions. This was the time to get together with family members despite being busy with work and schoolwork on normal days. This was the time to bond and put aside all the worries and unhappiness. I hope that in this joyous month, I'll become happier and stronger. (: SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MY MUSLIM FRIENDS! (: |