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not your juliet Ika Marissa Waty; turning eighteen and happier. A very jaunty human who always look on the brighter side of life. However, I have my own set of flaws. In fact, everyone has. All in all, I don't want to be a competitive person cause when I do, I'll stop being happy. I'll be and live as who I am. the crowd Adeline Aini Amalina Aminah Amirah Fadzli Faradea Hamid Hanes Indra Jasma Jenny Jordon Jun Jie Liana Mizah Nad Sabrina Sherry Shiing Sophia Suhaila Syafiqah Sylvia Thomas Tobi spit it out ShoutMix chat widget never look back and regret March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 Credits ©Glamouresque.	Wednesday, August 27, 2008 My fingers are weak yet I can still have the energy to type this post. I had a mock test for Social Studies in the afternoon. It rained today but not as bad as yesterday's. Baby is having a match now and I am feeling hungry. I'll be mugging hard for Social Studies at night. We received the mock test results which we did last week and I scored 45/50. Yeah, excellent, but I referred to the notes. Hope I will do as great and get that kind of results for N's without referring to the notes. We'll be having Teacher's Day Celebration and ACES Day. We are having a mini-party and Sherry suggested that all of us as a class join forces by giving 1 bucks each to buy a BIG cake since Hafiz is not bringing steamboat like last year -.-" And yes, I have to emphasise on the word BIG cause I assumed that my class has the largest number of pupils. 46 pupils in a NA class. How's that?! I think our class holds a record for having the largest number of students in a class. LOL mcm paham. Okay I wna go eat my dinner now. Stomach is calliing for foooooooooood! Toodles~! Tuesday, August 26, 2008 It has been raining cats and dogs these few days and the rain would go on and on for hours. At night, it'll get chilly and cold. I don't even dare switch on the fan at button number 2. It's exactly a week away to the killing thrilling nerve-wrecking actual GCE N Level examination. I'll be having MT paper on the 2nd of September, followed by Social Studies on the 3rd nd EL paper on the 4th. While everyone is still in bed having their beauty sleep, or palms will turned sweaty and there is sure gna be a blackout. But hope that it will NOT happen. Well, I'm freaking piss off with this: Bridging classes during holidays?! FCK LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! It's not fairrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! They keep emphasosong on suffer now, enjoy later but what is this?! We'll be having bridging classes for almost a month and now our holidays has reduced to a month instead of 3 months! I believe it wasn't like this the previous year! And usually afetr the first 3 papers, we will have our own self-study at home instead of going to school but it's not gna happen! We still have to attend school as per normal! THIS IS NOT FAIR AND I WNA HAVE A PROTEST! AThe worst thing is, if you didn't attend the bridging class, it means that you cannot go to Sec 5. CANNOT?! Who are you tryna decide our future?!?!?!? What if there are some students who really do not want to continue to sec 5? And the results are not even out yet. For example, if I attend the bridging class (full attendance) but when I receive my N level results and I didn't meet the criteria of making it to sec 5, isn't that wasting a whole lot of bullshit time?! AAAAAAAAAARGH I HATE THIS SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thursday, August 21, 2008 I had a bad week. I got back my Prelim results and it was disappointing. I remember crying twice a day just because of the hectic results I receive. I wish I knew what went wrong which lead to that kind of results. I was only happy for my Social Studies paper which I managed to score a distinction. Others was terrible yet neutral. I expected more from myself to do better but it was just my wishful thining. My friends kept saying that this was just prelims, N level will be easier. Honestly, I don't believe in that, even when those who ever took N level said so. I'm really worried and I have no idea what to do. I'm rooted to the ground and looking around aimlessly, waiting for something to lead me the way. However, it is my duty to find the right path. I will not go on any further. Toodles ~! Sunday, August 17, 2008 Saturday: I went out with Sherry, Hamid and yasin. Met Sherry and Hamid at Admiralty. Hamid was late. Very late. Took the train to Suntec and straight went to KFC. Sherry's and my stomach was growling, craving for food. Walked around Suntec and there were alot of cravings. One example was an Adidas hoodie and it cost of 122 solid bucks (!!!!!!) Well, I could only admire it. Met Yasin, at lassssssssst. Walked from Suntec alllllllllll the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay to Fort Canning. Chilled at Esplanade rooftop til ard (pm and headed home. While going out from the entrance, bumped into Faiz, Hairul and Ashnul. Took some photos with Faiz's SLR. Ohhhh how envy I am with him SLR. Wish I cld own it someday, one day. Actually theres alot of things happened but I'm too lazy to elaborate. This is just a summary of what I did yeasterday. We didn't managed to wath the Suntec Dance as we son't have any idea where the venue was. Oh well, hope that I'm going to the grand finals. Sunday: Stucked at home feeling damn bored and I don't know what to do bye! Friday, August 15, 2008 Finally, Prelims are OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! Alaa, prelims only. Lol :D And we'll definitely gna get back our scripts on Monday. Well, I'm prepared for the worse. I went to catch a movie with Fliqz and we watched Money No Enough ll. It's quite hilarious though but emotional when it comes to the end. Ironically, I cried. There's a moral behind the movie which show show calculative Singaporeans are they will do almost ANYTHING for $$$$$$. Catch it yourself and you'll know. Thursday, August 14, 2008 Everything has change now. Especially the people. You walk off just like that. Not even a bid goodbye. Who are we to you now? I feel that I was used and stabbed in the back. Why are people being cruel nowadays? Why does influences get the better of them? Honestly, they're smart enough to think what's right and wrong. They can think for themselves but it's just because of influences. Maybe they're strong on the outside but weak in the inside. Why do these people keep entering my life and won't let me be who I want to be; Me. They're a whole new person now. I feel awkward talking to them. It feels like talking to a bunch of newbies but instead, we are the newbies. We just don't know what they're talking about. They're talking in their own world. Bloody own asshole planet. I feel dumb when I'm around them, but at the same time, the warmth and security as we're always together. But that was last time. Now, I don't feel any of it. It was gone just like that. I wonder what kind of devil took that away from us, or is it us? I'm pretty sad for what is happening right now, but nothing I say will change them. I won't get them again. Never. Today's paper was hard. Both passages are soso boring, yet I forced myself to read and answ the questions. Omg, I especially hate passage B. I find it nonsensical lah. And for summary, I have to write a summary on passage B! D-E-A-D! Okay whatever I say now is useless cause I've done it and it's over. Tomorrow will be my last day with the final 2 papers- Phy and Math paper 2. Wish me a thrillion thousand millions of lucks people! (: Wednesday, August 13, 2008 I miss being in 5s. I miss being together with you girls. I thought that nothing cld break us apart, but I was wrong. It's been sucha long time since we had an outing. A full set of 5s. I always hoped and looking forward to that particular day but it never came. Maybe it was just my wishful thinking. Two of you girls had gone into the hiphop industry and since then, we started to fall apart. We no more talked and laughed together like how we used to. Instead, the two of you talked about your recordings and new hiphop friends etc while the rest talked among ourselves. When we organised an outing on Saturdays, you two will always be busy attebting gigs and doing performances. I'm not blaming entirely on you. It's not that we don't support but it seems that you've put us aside once you've pursued your dreams. Putting us aside already upsets me but you even wna put your studies away too? You said you're trying but I didn't see any progress. You're still the same. We, as your friends, who've known you for almost 4 years now, is tryna help you. But instead, you went to your hiphop friends who've you known for less than a year. Idk what else to say but I hate your behaviour. For goodness sake, this is Singapore. Economy standard is now high. Even if you're in a career now, you won't go anywhere without a cert. A good one. Though you wa go to ITE, still, you need good results. You're capable of doing better. Actually, you're way better than me in academic studies. But you let it slip off your fingers. Fine, I know it's your future. And you don't need anyone to tell you what to do and stuffs like that but why do you have friends for? To accompany you when you're alone? To comfort you when you're down? Yes, that's what friends are for. And friends don't let their friends go to the wrong path and get lost. I'm not saying the friedns you are with now are bad companies, but they're way matured than you and they have their own life. Don't be someone you're not. I miss us. Today's papers sucks balls. Whole lot. It was Geog and MT paper 2. I know MT seems pretty easy but it wasn't. Maybe it's me who didn't try hard enough or it was becuase of that mthfcking BOBO! He kept making noise and talked to me. During the exam. At times he'll just do some silly things and I couldn't tolerate it. My concentration was lst in thin air and I just couldn't get it back. All thanks to that Bobo. &%$#@@*! I'll be going for a mugging session later with my clsmates, including that Bobo. Tomorrow is his birthday and I am so gna get back at him real hard! I'll be having EL paper 2 only, followed by Math paper 2 and Physics on Friday and that's the end!!!!!!.. Of prelims. Oh how I wish it was N level. Mampos! I didn't even put in much effort and I know that I'm gna screw up when the results are out. But it's okay, I'm ready to face it. No matter what the results are, I'm gna study my ass off. Hope so (: I'll be going out with girlfs on saturday. Maybe to town. Sherry has been dying to buy a pair of gladiators. Ira too, but not sure if she is buying. I'll just tag along and if I see any cute dress or a great pair of flipflops, I'll just.. *KE-CHING*! -take out my credit card. Cheyyyyyy, ni bile ade duit je. When I'm dry, I'll cry ): ): Ah, once in a while right? (: toooooooooodlesdlesdlesdles* Tuesday, August 12, 2008 I had Math paper 1 and Art paper today. Surprisingly, math was not that bad. I managed to do the sums but the last few questions mcm ade kurang ajar gitu. How irony. For art, I kept sighing. Dammmmmmmmmn, who wouldn't sigh when you're in the hall doing your final artwork for 3 damn hours?! Oh well, I'm glad its overrrrrr. Geog and MT paper 2 tmr. And I'm worried for Geog. Hell lotzxzxzxzxz! I tried reading the qns from the specimen paper that Ms Mas print out for us and it is NOT easy. It is so indirect yet the answer is like in front of you. I find it frustrating sometimes. Well, who doesn't? Gotta mug real hard tonight. Prelims sucks laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. Very stressfffffffffulll. And tiring. And boring. And sickening. And crazy. Pffft. I find it crap but at the same time not, cause it is more like a rehearsal for the actual N level than a mock test for me. LOL. Okay I wna go sleep bye. Saturday, August 9, 2008 Okay firstly, let me update on yesterday (Friday): I was wrong about the celebration at school. It was aweeeeeeesomeeeeeeeeeee! Idk why but I was pretty high in the hall during the concert. Our school had something like Singapore Idol, only that contestants are required to sing Singapore's national day songs. I was dying to stand suring their performance but all my friends were shy. Ah bullshit! In the end, I stand on my own. Hehe, just for awhile. Then it was the sing-along segment and it turned out to be like a gig. Haha. It was full of havoc and hottttttt! Surprisingly, I enjoyed this year's concert/celebration. We had games which was the students vs teachers and oh well, the teachers won -.- Headed home and went to my cousin's hse for their marriage. Saturday: Sadly, I didn't went out on a Saturday. Or worst still, on National Day. I guess almost everyone will be heading to Mrina Bay to watch the fireworks while I'm stucked at home ): Anw, something good happen. Don't wish to elaborate. Omg I still havent do my revision and art yet I'm here?! Pfffffffffft. Tomorrow I'll be out for my cousin's wedding. Again. Wish me luck with the killer heels. Thursday, August 7, 2008 Today's paper was alrightttttttttttttt lah. I had Chem and MT paper 1. It was realy worth studying the whole TYS and practise paper for chem. Hopefully I'll get a satisfying result. I had a little trouble for MT's section B, which is the compo section. All the questions were hard and idk which qns to choose. In the end, I have to choose one and I did. And honestly, I don't feel good about it. I've showed Mdm Irda my final design and she said okay. Phew. Now, all I need to do is to finish up my development and final design, plus my investigation and artist reference. i'm not sure if I can get the artist refernece and pics printed in time. Art is one next Tues! ): Geog remedial helped me to clear my doubts and hopefully I'll do well for the paper on next Wed. I've just finished one development while watching Juno. Damn, I love that movie! And especially Ellen page (Juno), she's extremely gorgeous! Ahh from tomorrwo onwards til Sunday I'll efinitely have no time to study as I'm helping out for my cousin's wedding. Sheesh, such a wrong timing. Tomorrow is Red Day, or easy to say, National Day Eve. Everyone in school is required to wear a red t-shirt. And it'll be half- day. Well, I'm not looking forward for tomorrow's celebration. I can bet that it'll be even boring than last year. It just gets bored and sick every year. However, there'll be games where we, students, will compete with our opponent, the teachers. I'm still sick but feel a whole lot better now (: Hope that I'll recover by tomorrow. And make my ulcer go away toooooooo ): Wednesday, August 6, 2008 I'm still sick, and all I could do was to secure my nose with a tissue. I will have no appetite to eat as my throat feels painful and itchy when I swallowed it. All I could drink was water. Yes, pure drinking distilled water. ): EL paper 1 was fine, only that I forgot to put the date on the report format, so that means I have lost 1 mark. Just like that. Fckzxzxzxz. For Social Studies, I did my essay well but I'm not gna elaborate on how I did for SBQ. Whatever it is, 2 words; it sucksssssss. I was struggling with time and tolerating my nose at the same time. Well, I'm not gna be surprise if I failed. I'm glad that the 5 of us were finally back at the table (: Even the smallest and simplest things could bring euphoria to me. Tuesday, August 5, 2008 OMGGGGGGGGGG! Why do I have to fall sick the day before my Prelims? It always happen like this. Maybe I'm too worried and nervous til I've gone sick. I'm having a bad flu and an itchy throat. I've finally memorised the facts for tmr's ss paper but I'm not confident. It's okay. Just try my best right? Right.. Okay I'm not okay! I'm having EL paper 1 and SS paper tmr. Wish a few thousand thrillion lucks for me please! :S Sunday, August 3, 2008 I'm dumbfouded right now. I don't know what to do :S