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not your juliet
Ika Marissa Waty; turning eighteen and happier. A very jaunty human who always look on the brighter side of life. However, I have my own set of flaws. In fact, everyone has. All in all, I don't want to be a competitive person cause when I do, I'll stop being happy. I'll be and live as who I am.
the crowd
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Aini
Amalina
Aminah
Amirah
Fadzli
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Hamid
Hanes
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Jasma
Jenny
Jordon
Jun Jie
Liana
Mizah
Nad
Sabrina
Sherry
Shiing
Sophia
Suhaila
Syafiqah
Sylvia
Thomas
Tobi
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Thursday, July 31, 2008
I am sososososo stress and worried for the upcoming Prelims! Its less than a week left and I'm not prepared. I still have to finish up my art paper, maths practice and chem too! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH DIEDIEDIEIDIE! ): ): ): ): Sunday, July 27, 2008
 I miss you girls. Thursday, July 24, 2008
School was chaotic today. It was all about fights and violence. And it wasn't one but two case which was turned into a police case. I don't inderstand this people. Don't they have better things to do? The shameful part was, all of them are Sec 4s. Such immatures. I don't wish to elaborate anymore cause only the people who witness thus will understand how I feel. Dear _______, Finally, you're back. I was so delighted to see you after not seing you for such a long period of time. I finally get to hugged you after yearning for one. However, you've not change. You slacked during class and don't pay attention. I don't know what else I could do. The first thing in the morning when I saw you, you told me about something you did last night. It was nothing wrong but I'm happy for you. Thus, you should concentrate on your studies as much as what you are striving to get. You get what I mean. Oh dearest friend, please heed my advice for once. Work hard. Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Dear _______, The girls and I miss you so much. You've not come to school for 5 days. We miss you so much, yet worried at the same time. In fact, everyone is worried about you. I've just found out some things today and its about you. I don't want to lecture but help you instead. You were a such a cheerful and engrossed person when it comes to studies but now, you've put it aside and concentrate more on your lyrics. You should know that we are facing a critical year and we are facing it together. You even skipped the N level MT oral. What happened to you? You were not the person I once knew. You may say that you wna go ITE, but how can you go there by not even attending school? You were influenced by doing good things but at the wrong time. You don't know how much the people around you loves and cares about you. Do you appreciate it? You can do the things that you do now later, It will still be there but studies won't wait for you. I've known you for almost 4 years now, but I somehow feel that you're a stranger to me. I want the old you back. Even if you don't wna do this for us, do this for the sake of your mother. Monday, July 21, 2008
Ah fck (!!!!!!!) I screwed up for the most important oral. Again. I had my MT Oral today and damn it sucks balls lah though the qns for the conversation was easy! My throat was choked with fear and my brain was looking for malay words. AHHHHHHHH BI WNA CRY ALR )))))): Well, I guess I'll have to score higer for the written exam. Went to the library with Hamid to do some research for my art as we received the prelim art qns paper today. I haven't decide on which topic to do but I'll have to decide fast cause I only got less than 3 weeks to finish up the prep work. Ah art is sososososo troublesome! Yet its easy to score. (: Friday, July 18, 2008
 I certainly miss Soundwaves. I miss the people, the other dancers, the dressing room,the stage, the rehearsals(even though it sucks) and basically everything that has to do with the event. Being in the event has been a great experience and i admit, this was a rare opportunity to perform at Esplanade Theatres. Throughout this event, the hip-hawk dancers has bonded. I can still remember how havoc and crazy we were in the dressing room. The laughters could still be heard in my head. But too bad, I am not ble to continue going for practice every Sunday for the time-being as I have to concentrate on the coming prelim and national exam. I'll only be back ard October. I bet I'll miss the fun ): However, I have to work hard for my studies. I miss the PA Hiphawk Crew! I'll be heading to Mac in an hours time for mugging session with Sherry and some Express guys who is kind enough to tutor us in our Maths (: Wednesday, July 16, 2008
 It's exactly 3 weeks away to my N level Prelim. 4 more days to N level MT Oral. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH (!!!!!!!!) I'm currently listening to songs to soothe my ears while chatting with Shafiq and Sophia while blogging this post. See, I am multi-tasking! Which is ridiculous. Haha. The school will not be as normal as the usual days. Instead, it'll be too colourful to handle. We're encouraged to wear our ethnic costume as we're celebrating Racial Harmony Day tomorrow (!!!) I've already planned what to wear but I'm sure I'll not be as outstanding as those who can afford to buy other race's ethnic costume for the sake of tomorrow. Well, I'm not jealous. It's just, pathetic. Idk who the hell they wanna impress. But I don't mind, I wanna see what they've got for us. However, lessons resumed as usual. Even SST. Pffft. I'll be having my MT class test tomorrow and wish me luck cause honestly, I suck balls in my own mother tongue. *sticks out tongue and rolls eyes* Monday, July 14, 2008
The bad news has been spread around the class. I pity her but at the same time, not convincing. I don't know how to explain this feeling but it's just not right. Carelessness happens but it involves the other classmates who have paid up. I do not understand WHY must they spread this to the other class? Okay, I understand that you have friends from other classes but please, this is only among the class. Can't you respect other's privacy? If that is how they wanna make her feel guilty, well, I find it childish because they won't get what they want. They just want revenge. I don't know how to express this situation cause I'm not involve but I'm helping her to sort things out. This is the secong time that soething happened like this in my class this year. Wonder what's happened to my trusting class eventhough their behaviour are sick. Sunday, July 13, 2008
 This is Made that I've been talking about (:Today's dance training at PA was cancelled. I wanted today to be the last practice but I have to wait til next week. I'll not be coming to PA from the next two weeks onwars because I wna concentrate on my Prelims and the killer N's. (AHHHHHH) I'll only be back at PA around Oct, after everything is overrrrr. I'll sure miss a whole lot of things, plus the fun and laughter but for the sake of doing well for the national exams,I have to sacrifice the times, even the most precious moments. I'll definitely miss dancing, and I'll grow like a pig in no time as I will not exercise regularly and eat junk foods to keep me occupied during mugging sessions. I'll definitely have limited to do anything. Most of my time will be used up for stuying and school. So that is to say, I'll spend less time on the comp and the darling tv. Also, I have no time to go out with my firends. Okay, yes we will go out. Go out for mugging sesions. For the sake of doing well, I'll do anything. Even to the largest extent that I won't want to do it. MT Oral will be soon, ard 2 weeks time (??) and Prelims is in 3 weeks time. How time flies. So fassssssst. I wna make it to Sec 5 to get the O level cert. I know I'll go through hard times and the obstacles but there is nothing easy in life. If it was, there must be something wrong. We can't always depend on luck. Instead, we should depend on ourselves. It's whether you want it or not. If you want it, go for it. And I will do that. Even if I don't reach my goal, I'll just go with the flow. Wherever I may go, I'll accept it or not, its my choice. It's my life (: Saturday, July 12, 2008
I had a laughable and unfogettable outing today with dear Made. Out of all the outings I had with him, today was the most fun one out of all. We went..... SHOPPING! Haha. First stop was Far east Plaza. We had lunch there and proceeded to Pacific Plaza, followed by Wisma Atria and Cineleisure. After the roundings at town, we walked all the way to Plaza Singapura and headed to City Hall. Made bought a pair of pants. I bought a skirt and Made bought tees from Marina Square. He treated me to McCafe. Thanks! Slacked and chilled outside MArina Square while watching the National Day Parade Preview. Made calls jets as "aeroplane". Haha. We laughed like assholes and he kept pestering that the "aeroplanes" will make a heart shape! I keep making fun of his "R" as he has a short tongue. Haha. There were more insode jokes which I can't seem to remember but overall, I had a good blast with him (: Upload pics soon. Friday, July 11, 2008
I'll be going for my mugging session with Sherry in 1 hour time. Prelim is in 3 weeks time and I'm damn fcking nervous. I can't do the practice papers which teachers have been distributing since school re-open. Everything that I've learned from last semester, it's nowhere to be found in my brain. Gah, I'll find it somewhere. *giggles* Some people just won't realise how important education is. Okay I admit, I hate studying. Actually, who loves studying? But in order to succeed, education is the economy's first priority. Certs, diploma, degree and whatever. Everywhere you go, you'll need this kind of things to get jobs. Stable ones, especially in Singapore. I'm not being thick-skinned but, prelims and national exams are just around the corner and all you do is sit there chatting away while scribbling some lyrics instead of paying attention and jotting down notes? How I wish I could help by throwing away your lyric book and let you focus in class but you've already have a mindset that what you're doing now is going to be your life. yes, you can choose that as your career but you chosed it at the wrong time. Can't you at least wait until the exams are over? It won't run away but there's no second chance in education. Thursday, July 10, 2008
Right now, I just wna concentrate more on my studies and make myself happy. I'll do whatever it takes to make myself stay joyful and won't let anything disrupt my life. Whatever shits come my way, I'll get rid of it without going through hard times. I'm going out with my darling deng (Made) this coming Saturday and we'll be going shoppingggggggggg (!!!!!!!!!!) I think my 250 bucks will be in my account by now and he'll also be buying some stuffs. I'm using this time to forget about everything, including the idiot. I've wasted time and I know I could use those time to do some beneficial things. He's not worth it. Because he is an idiot. I'll be having class test(s) next week. Gotta buck up and focus more. Study for it and pass well so that I'll know where I'm standing and know what to improve on. Some bad shits have been happening recently and I'm really upset. This concerns mutual trust and at the same time, blames. Let's hope when everyone knew the problem, they will not give cold shoulders and start blaming or make a big fuss. We're all in this together and there is more than one victim. Or even better, get 'that' thing back. Hopefully, a miracle would happen. Wednesday, July 9, 2008
 Lately, I've been thinking; Will I ever lead a blissful love life? Or do I still have a future ahead? Will I overcome my fears one day? Some wishes or dreams will never come true. I don't believe in luck, but I do believe in karma. What wrong have I done? What sins have I created? This are tests from God, but why is it me? I'm bearing the pain too much, and I have to go through this all on my own. Why do my loved ones walked off when I needed them the most? I was there when they needed comfort and encouragement but why must it happen to me? All I could do was crumble myself down. No words could express the secret agony against me. Nobody will ever understand how I'm feeling. I don't want any sympathy, but I need to let this out. Why oh why. Sunday, July 6, 2008
It's been long since I last updated on absolutely anything. I've been busy with Soundwaves 2008 - 12 to 12 held at the Esplanade Theatres. Finally it's overrrrrrr. This has been a rare opportunity and also, it has brought the dancers closer. The esperience hs been an exciting one. It also test my patience as the rehearsal sucks whole lot. And I've sacrificed some sleep due to going back home around midnight and going to school the next day. I managed to concentrate in school like how I usually do but I skipped school on Friday cause I can't take it anymore! I really need some ample of sleep. Preview: We had the media conference and the show was okay. My hair was turned into dreadlocks! I love it but it's distracting when dancing as the extension will swing around and might hit anybody, even myself. (: Friday: I screwed up on the briefcase part. I failed to catch the briefcase. I couldn't take the fact that I didn't managed to catch the briefcase and it brought me down. But with the help of the other dancers, their encouragement lifted my head high. I was taking a risk, and it's not an easy one. I can always do better the next day. After the show, we headed to Makansutra. I was damn pack but we managed to find a place. I didn't eat as I was still full from the dinner they provide us. Saturday: It was the last and final performance and this is the only day that the guest of honours are present. The theatre is on full house and we have to murder the stage. And we did! Even they were some things which are cocked up, we know that we've done our best and it was wayyyyyyy better than the previous day. Went to the private reception after the show ends, even we weren't supposed to. (heeeeee) Had some delicacies and delicious satay! Went back to the dressing room and changed. Yvonne, Jin, Hazlina, Sheren, Fitri(new friend) and I headed to Mac at Marina Square. We chilled and laughed like a bunch of lunatics. And soon, it's time to head home. I reached home at almost 1am in the morning (: |
