Perhaps man invented fire, but woman invented how to play with fire.
not your juliet Ika Marissa Waty; turning eighteen and happier. A very jaunty human who always look on the brighter side of life. However, I have my own set of flaws. In fact, everyone has. All in all, I don't want to be a competitive person cause when I do, I'll stop being happy. I'll be and live as who I am. the crowd Adeline Aini Amalina Aminah Amirah Fadzli Faradea Hamid Hanes Indra Jasma Jenny Jordon Jun Jie Liana Mizah Nad Sabrina Sherry Shiing Sophia Suhaila Syafiqah Sylvia Thomas Tobi spit it out ShoutMix chat widget never look back and regret March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 Credits ©Glamouresque.	Thursday, June 26, 2008 I don't wna be famous, I don't wna be a star but I wna have boobies (: My N level EL Oral will confirmed be on next Thurs (!!!) N level Oral will be from 16th to 29th July. Prelims will be on week 7 and N level will be on September. Omggggggggg everything is happening sosososososo fast! I'm trying hard to buck up in evry subject, especially the horrofic maths. I think I'm doing well in school. No distractions. Okay, maybe sometimes (: Whatever, I still can't make up my mind if I wna continue to Sec 5 or go straight to Higher Nitec. Firstly, I'm not confident of passing my N level with flying colours. Secondly, if I do pass well, I'm afraid that I'll struggle through the killer O's. I'm already suffering and suffocating now for the N's. The O's will be even worse. Thirdly, I can no longer survive in that pathetic school. i know it's no big deal but hey, it matters okay. The environment of the school has changed. The school rules suck ball whole lot. And I wish I could roast that prinicipal of mine alive. For the Sec 4s and 5s, our SST will be 4 days a week instead of 3. And it will be added on monday, the one and only day which I can ease my mindddddddd?! Well, when I think back, for the sake of achieving good results at the end of the day was my only concern. The last day of school will be on 23d October. Eventhough we end earlier, we still have to come back for bridging classes. be prepaerd for Sec5. Whatever bullshit okay. Yours truly, Marissa, your classic baby <3 Tuesday, June 24, 2008 Do you know how to patch up a wound? I'm gna have a geog class test next Tues. And it is on the same day as the N lvl EL Oral (!!!) Omg how time flies so fast. I'm worried that I'll be too nervous and I can't read fluently and I'll stutter. That is my biggest fear when it comes to oral. And I'm afraid that I will have a blackout when they ask me a question during the conversation. As you know, conversation is my weakest link. HELP, pls. My class had a short "filming" after school regarding the graduation day. We were assigned to say words of appreciation to our teachers who helped us throughout the years and the videoclip that they've recorded will be played on the graduation day. Faizal and I wrote a short message which we want the whole class to say. It goes something like: "We would like to thank all the teachers who had taught our class and we apologised for our misbehaviour. Thank you for tolerating our nonsense and once again, thank you for bringing us this far." Yeah, it's something like that. Eventhough it is a short message, we hope that the teachers will feel touched as those words were from the bottom of our heart. Money issue is a problem again. I have to pay $25 for art, $5 for the class photos and $10 for the yearly TYS (phy&chem). It's a total of $40 and it is impossible to pay everything at one go. Also, the class is planning to buy a class jersey each. The range of price is from $12-$17, which I don't think so. A jersey is not cheap and they want to get FBT. Like what they say, everything is money. Pffft. Monday, June 23, 2008 Get loose. School has officially re-open (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) I'm still in the holiday mood though, but I'll have to get rid of it sooner or later. I spent the last few days of the holidays by: Friday: I went out with my PA dancemates to celbrate Josh's birthday. Di treated us to a movie and we watched 'Get Smart'. It was damn hilarious but I swear I don't like the ending when they both are together. Haha, they just don't look compatible together. I'll rate 7 out of 10 for the movie. Josh, the birthday bor (or man) treated us to Sakae Sushi. Well, I don't kinda like sushi but I'll just give it a shot. Things went out well until I ate this sushi with a white squid on it (which is called an 'Ika') and I almost throw up! It's tasteless yet I can hardly swallow. It'll get slippery in my tongue and it is like rubber when I chewd on it. In the end, I gave up and throw it up in a piece of tissue. From that incient onwards, I swear I will never eat an 'Ika' again! But I'll still eat sushi. Occasionally. Haha. met up with my parents in the evening and they bough for me a sandal and a leather sling bag. I got a second pair of sandal at the price of $10. The total that my dad paid for my things was $103. Sorry to burn your pocket agin! But thank you very much and I love you! Saturday: Went for a rehearsal at PA and it started quite late. It wasn't a tiring day as we only went for 2 rounds. After the rehearsal, meet up with Arwis at Woodlands Civic Centre MacDonald to finish up our hmwk. Dang, he's the biggest distraction. He keeps murmuring to himself and never fails to make me laugh, even to the lamest things in the whole universe. At the end of the day, I managed to finish my SS assignment. Well, almost. Sunday: Had training as usual and this time, we had to dance with the boots. Imagine dancing a hiphop routine wearing a 1-2 inch boot. Since I've done it, it hurts. I can't even do the backslide. Whenever there's a step which I have to turn and back to the front, bending the knees and balancing is the key. The ball of the feet hurts. but for the sake of dancing at the Esplanade Theatres for the first time, and getting 250 bucks, its all worth it. Thursday, June 19, 2008 FRIENDSTER IS GETTING ON MY NERVES! IT SUCKS DAY BY DAY. FRIENDSTER, I HATE YOU (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) peanut butter & jelly. I stayed at home the whole daaaaaaaay. I had intentions of getting out of the house but I'll think back of what I'll lose. For example, I'll waste money. The most I'll spend is on food. Well, food is my biggest distractions and I admit, I love to eat! But still, I always try my best not to get carried away which will affect my weight. I'll definitely become more chubbier, which I hate alot. And I'll have to think of a way to get rid of all the fats in body. I've tried so hard to own abs on my stomach but I just couldn't. Even after doing sit-ups, I'll intend to eat. I can't resist it. See how obsessive I am about food? Haha. Luckily I'm into dance, which will keep me balance. But whateevr it is, I'll still eat either before or after dance practice. Or both! Oh dang, I gotta stop this obsession maaaaaaaaaaaaayne (!!!) Food is killing me. I will never ever starve myself, or throw out my food after eating like how the aneroxic people do. Maybe I'll try dieting. OMGGGGGGG I'M GOING ON A DIET?!?! Nobody's gonna believe me! HAH! Me, Ika Marissa Waty, is going ona diet? I can't be serious. I can't even look at sweets! Okay, I think I know the reason why. it's maybe because of the school hols. If I was schooling, I will only eat during recess, which is only a burger and a packet of milo. I'll surely go home late due to the activities after school, so I'll probably be home lastest by 7pm. By then, I won't want to eat beacuse I don't know why. Yeah, that's it! Luckily school is starting next Monday, but goodbye to wake-up-late-in-the-morning. Okay I'm done. I'm heading to Vivo tomorrow with my PA dancemates; Josh, Yvonne and Di. Josh will be treating us to the movies and Ben&Jerry because it is his birthday. So, he thought of giving his beloved dancemates a treat! Can't wait! (: Wednesday, June 18, 2008 Someday, one day. School is re-opening in a few days time. From Monday onwards, I'll have to force myself out of bed and sleep early ): Also from then on, I need to put my full attention in class to prepare for Prelims and the kiler Ns. Soundwaves will be on in 2 weeks time. I'll be spending my last weekends of holiday for rehearsals and training. Omgagaga I was looking forward to have the last hell of fun but it doesn't turn out how I want it. Well, can somebody at least asked me out on Saturday night, after the rehearsal. If you don't mind me being all sweaty and dirty ((((: I have a few more assignments which needs to be complete. I did my compo in the afternoon. And I'll be doing my English compre later at night (think so). Hee. Tuesday, June 17, 2008 I went out with these two girls to Jurong Swimming Complex. We had a hell of fun! Ira and I took the rides and it was awesome, especially the fast moving water in the slide which causes it to move soooooooo fast! We went to alot of area repeatedly, and there was this grp of malay guys and they just need a smack on their face to stop looking at us. In the end, one of them approched Sherry and talked to her while Ira and I was in the pool. From thwn on, they kept following us til I don't know when we lost them. Still, theor face keeps coming back and speaking of the devils, there they were. Maaaaaaaaan, is that their way of maing friends? Well, they're scaring people instead. Soon, it was almost 5pm in the afternoon and we decided to wash up and get ready to head back to our hometown. At the exit entrance, they were waiting for us!?! Omgagagaga they must be nuts! Their intention was to get Sherry's contact number -.- Well, Sherry did, but not her real number! Hahahah :DDDDD Okay I', tired to elaborate wat happen next but just a short summary. Went to a nearby park and took some photos. Head back to Woodlands. Bought a bubble tea each and chilled at Civic Centre. Went home. Done (((((((: Monday, June 16, 2008 Everyday is a new day. I'm starting everything all over again. I wna lead a blisful life with nothing to worry about. I'm traumatised by what happened recently but I won't let it get on my way. He's an idiot. I won't let history repeat. I'm still the same person, but I'm changing the things around me for the better. I wna build a chain of friendship, anticipate more in dancing and of course, pass my N level and proceed to Sec5. My girls and I are heading to the Jurong Swimming Complex tmr to have some goody fun time! Hopefully it'll turn out great. I'm still thinking of what to wear tmr ): I still have alot to do, esp my hwks, yet I still have the time to go out. Well, I'm a teenager (: But don't worry, I'll buck up as much as I can and I know I can do it. I just need moral supports and guidance from family and friends. They're the best (: Sunday, June 15, 2008 No matter what happens, I'll be strong. Even if it didnt turn out how I want it to be, its fate. Monday, June 9, 2008 Yesterday's dance training was alright. Learned a new choreo using a suitcase and I was chosen. Oh god, now I have three parts which I have to remember; the umbrella choreo, everybody's choreo and the suitcase choreo. Well, I think I can handle it. Soundwave is in 2-3 weeks time. I think we're able to complete the whole choreo soon and able to do polishing with the remaining time. I'm going on a mugging date with Makcik Shidot tomorrow. We're heading to I don't know where she's bringing me. Daaaaaamn, I really ned to complete my hwk and do a whole lot of revisions. First week of hols has been used up because of the extension classes. The second week was like nothing. I totally slacked. And now, we're in the thrid week and left with the final fourth week. I'm left with 2 weeks to complete my hwk now and put in some effort to do some revising maaaaayne (!!!!!) August is already the Prelims and September is the killer Ns! How time flies so fast. I'm really worried yet I won't get up on my feet and start working on it. AHHHHHHH...... !!!!! I'M GNA DIE I'M GNA DIE I'M GNA DIE! (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) Sunday, June 8, 2008 I spent my Saturday by going out with my mom, aunt and cousins instead of heading to Pasir Ris to watch the Dance Explosion Finals ): However, I didn't regret going out with my family as I get to eat Nasi Ayam Penyet. Deeeeeeeeeeeelicious (: Especially the hot and spicy sambal. *drools* Headed to Sim Lim Square to get my cousin's hard disk and PSP Slim. I'm not jealous okay! I'm not into IT and games stuffs like that. I'm only committed to handphones and Mp3/Mp4/iPod only. Now, I feel like I'm a failure. I suck in everything, especially relationships. I easily slipped it off through my fingers. I don't want to go on like this, but I don't want my relationship to end too. I was just getting a head start but everything had to happen at the same time. I'm trying my best to overcome all this but I'm just weak. Yes, I do think the negative side but whenever I think about the positive side, I know it won't happen. It's obvious. I can't lie to myself anymore. I can't decive myself anymore. Cause the more I do it, the more miserable I am. This miseries just won't leave me alone. I don't have the courage to step up to it. I'm changing slowly but I don't realise. However, my boyf notice it. See, I can't hide it anymore. I'll have to face it. But how? I'm making my peers suffer right now. I don't wish to be a burden to them, or anyone. I don;t wna live anymore. Thursday, June 5, 2008 they call it murder. I regret cutting my fringe. Very much. but it was all too late. I'll just have to wait til it grows back. I shld have just cut it short. Just short. pffffft. I'm only left with less than 3 wks to complete my hmwk and revisions. Fffffck. I keep delaying myself to do those hmwks. One thing about me is, I can't stay at home. If not, I'll intend to laze ard instead of doing a good purpose. There's too many distractions such as the computer, the television and even my handphone! Oh gosh, time is ticking ): I'll be performing for an event at Esplanade Theatres in early July. It'll be some sort of like a musical. Props were used in the item which is gna be put up by the PA Talents. One of the props is umbrellaaaaaaaaaaa. :D And yeah, I'm dancing for the umbrella part. Well, its not that bad. Quite easy though. But I need to act more or show more facial expressions. Haah. :D Seriously, I'm not good in acting, even if I sometimes do act in front of my peers and even the mirror! Of course, we're getting paid! Gosh, this is my 2nd time performing for an event and getting paid since I've been in the PA Talents (: Oh 250 bucksssssssss, come to Mommehhhhh! Monday, June 2, 2008 I'm gna cut my hair today. Layer them and cut the fringes. It's been ages since I've used the scissors to cut my hair, or more specific, experiment my hair. As a result, it always turned out bad. Therefore in future, I can never be a hairdresser. But maybe a hair stylist? That'll be better. (: I've tried doing the hmwks and goddddddddd, I feel like dropping dead. I will keep skipping to other worksheets when I'm halfway through the worksht that I'm doing on. Some not even to half. Omg I can't go on like this. It will definitely drive me nuts and this will affect my progress towards the killer Ns. I'm only left with less than 3 wks and I'm gna struggle like a mosquito which got entangled and struggling its way through out of a hairy leg. Or worse, it may even die. Will I end up like that poor mosquito? Oh gosh I gotta buck up like fck man. I really diedie wna do well for my prelims and especially Ns. Ikaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, work harder. PERSEVERE! ): ):