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not your juliet
Ika Marissa Waty; turning eighteen and happier. A very jaunty human who always look on the brighter side of life. However, I have my own set of flaws. In fact, everyone has. All in all, I don't want to be a competitive person cause when I do, I'll stop being happy. I'll be and live as who I am.
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Friday, May 30, 2008
currently listening to: Wonder Woman by Trey Songz I have no idea if I can still survive. My heart is aching, and my head is giving me headaches. I feel that parts of my body is going to die one by one. Okay, I'm just exaggerating. I'm talking about the hmwks I have to do during this 3 wks of holidays. I know it is not a big deal yet I have to talk about death but I feel like burning the hmwks okay! Let me list the hmwks I have for each subject:
So can you conclude now why I stated all the negative things from the first paragraph? This is the reason. So, I'm expected to complete at least 1 hmwk per day. Plus slogging hard on some weaker topics/subj. I know that this is for our own good but we have limits too. What happens if in the end, we can't make it? Are teachers still blaming on us for not working hard? Is it our fault? I can still say that there's a small itzy bitzy grp of people who can't make it no matter how hard they tried. And I'm afraid that I'll be one of them. No one ever says that life is gna be easy. The motivational talk which was held this morning in school was worth it out of all the talks which was held the past few days. I still remember this: Attitude is Everything. The formula: (A + E) X A + MV which stands for (Attiude + Effort) X Abilities + Moral Values. I will always remember this. Whatever the speaker said today, it motivates me to do better. Attitude is the habit of your thoughts. It is true that attitude is everything. Therefore, whatever I've type for the first 2-3 paragraphs, they are just complains and whines but I will strive to do well. (: I miss my darling Skaterboy ): Thursday, May 29, 2008
cloudy, baby. Classes today was better than the past few days. I'm more focused and I can study in the environment. I have no idea why but isn't that good news? I hope it'll be that way in future too. That means, if I were to get to Sec 5, I really hope to give my whole determination and perseverance to prepare for the killer Os. Gah, I hate the school now. I think Admiralty Sec has turned into a nursery, where there are full of colours. Striking ones. And they're re-painting everything. I mean, EVERYTHING! Including the ones that some of the art students and lowere secs painted on the walls last year. Hell, that painting didn't even last for a year and they're alreday painting the stupid primary colours?! Our school look so dorky and childish maaaaan. And the thing that made angry ws the principal's reply which is " Sorry, can't help it." WHAT THE FCK WAS THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN?! Since the day she has taken over the school, it has turned into disaster. No matter how much I hate the former principal, she was not as cruel as the new one. She doesn't know how to appreciate yet she wants the best of everything. This sucks. Wednesday, May 28, 2008
 I chatted with Sophiaaaaaa the flying marsmallow in the afternoon. Woah, we gossip and linked up the web that she wants me to see. She help me edit some pictures and she even taught me how to save the picture above! HAHA :D I've learned a new thing today and I had loads of fun calling her names like..1) Crazy woman, 2) Siao Cha Bor, 3) Sophierce etc. As usual, if you call someone names, they will give you a name too. I don't wna type it out cause I have more nicknames than her. *grins* I love being around her. She drives me crazy! :D Not my fault that I've gone mad. She made me! HAHAH :DDDDD 3 days down, 2 more to go. I can't wait for the end of this week to end. I will not have to wake up early in the morning for the 3 wks of holidays, and not stepping into hell for awhile. Still, I have to keep studying and do revisions. Eventhough if I wna go out, I think I'll bring along some textbooks to keep me constant of mugging. Now, I have to make the textbooks and notes like my bestf. Take them wherever I go. Read the notes before going to sleep. And I'm not kidding ((((: be a time-out session for us. I don't even dare go to the library. The moment I see people studying with their headphones on and textbooks all over the place, it makes me worried. I feel guilty because I'm not doing what they're doing. I should be studying hard like them. And I mean, Fcking hard til my brain gets strained and tired. I don't know what I'm gna do if I do badly for N level. I have second thoughts of going to Higher Nitec. Now, there's limited places in Polys because there are so many unreasonable people who doesn't want to give up the opportunities to those who really need them. Nowadays, students who can go to JC wants to go to Poly. As a result, many students who are not equally "smarter" than them were not given a place in Poly eventhough they have the good grades because of those "unreasonable" people. Omg, come on, give chances to those who can make it laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. JC is a good place yet people rejected it. And now, we, the next generation, have to work harder than them just because the education standards are getting higher and higher. Cb lah org ni smue! That's the reason why I;m considering of going to Higher Nitec, so it will be easier for me to go to Poly. )": Tuesday, May 27, 2008
He's wrapped around her finger. currently listening to: All American Girl By Carrie Underwood The first week of June holidays was hell. Extension classes were on for the sce 2s, 4s and 5s. Well, tons of hmwks were given rahter than on a ordinary school day. But at least I can focus more than on a ordinary school day. No idea why. I;m very worried about N level. N level EL oral will be on Term 3 week 2, and I'm partially confident that I'll do well. Almost getting to the confidence but not too over-confident. That's not good. The subjects than worries me the most is EL and Mathematics. They really suck a whole lot yet its the basic subject of all. I dont understand why S'pore is getting advance in the education system. Their expectations are too high. For Combined Humans, my badge is the first to learn the new syllabus like Geography on Food and Bonding S'pore. I know that the brains of S'pore are getting bigger and cleverer but they should set this straight; Everyone is different. Yes, its a cliche phrase to say, " Work hard to Succeed" but you cant always get what you want. Some people are slow, some are not. It's too tough for them to take this as a challenge. All they want is money. Money, money, money. Arent these people greedy? Our country is getting more developed and advanced as time pass by, and workers are expected to make this happen but they dont realise that their pay doesnt get higher. They should be fair. They work hard to keep up with their jobs but the government are being unfair. They're being self-centered. All they care about are taking investments from another country and upgrade the tourism industry in S'pore. After being self-centerd and all, they want it to bring to the next generation by succeeding?! Wednesday, May 21, 2008
its a matter of extreme importance. My June hols will turn to hell. No such thing as relaxing or chillin' out. I got to make use of this one month to buck up everything. I shouln't think about boyf when I'm in school studying hard and I wont let anything affect me no matter what. I really wnat to score good grades and continue to Sec 5, eventhough I dont wish to stay in that pathetic school. Yesterday was the Prelim EL oral. well, i think i did better than MYE. I felt more confident reading and discussing the picture but the invigilator emphasised that my weakest link was the conversation part. In fact, I'm a confident speaker but i cant think fast. I'll always run out of idea and in the end, I'll hoo-haa and stuffs. Therefore, it brought down my total mark ): Its okay. now I know what i should work on and make sure I'll give my best shot on the actual N level. The actual N level SL oral will be held during the first or second week of the June hols. Omggggggg I really wna score high becauseI know that I'll definitely do badly for my paper 2. At least I wont score badly overall if my oral marks were good. And I really need to pass my EL; COMPULSORY! If not, I'll just have to say goodbye to Sec 5. Thursday, May 15, 2008
lift your hand up to the sky. currently listening to: Take A Bow by Rihanna im very upset. really. being in secondary school for four years now yet i dont feel any unity in the classes ive been in. today, two classmates fought and its situation was a small one. however, they dont wna let their pride down and as a result, it turned into a violent scene. i was traumatised as its between two races. you may not understand how i feel but i feel that these people are not matured yet. no ofeence but we're already 16. or older. im sick and tired of being stuck in a class of hooligans. okay, not really hooligans, acting like one. also, one thing abt my class is they like to find fault with others, like calling our classmates by their father's name. thats very rude. and i hate it. it may be a joke tp them but its ot funny. racist are also an issue. for goodness sake, this is Singapore, a multi-racial society! why do they have to find fault like this? i really dont understand why. im really frustrated as because of my class, i can rarely concentrate in clas. my class are ful of stubborn and attitude people. sometimes i just feel that some dont deserve to be promoted to sec 4, or not make it to sec 5. they're not realising how crucial this year is. its about 4 months to go before the N level, yet they're still fooling around and getting themselves into trouble. im not saying that im an angel and they're the devil but their behaviour just affects me greatly. i myself am not confident of making it to sec 5 but if the class was to be turned into a more conducive place for the other students who are keen to study, this may also bring influence for the stubbron ones. they'll eventually wake up and realised how important education is. i admit, i hate studying. well, who doesnt? but they're making me hate studying more. my teachers do not need to meet my parents next Thurday as i passed all my 5 subj. however if i were to add all of them for N level, i'll get 10 pts. and thats not good. im really worried and i hope taht i'll see a glimmer a hope soon, somehow. Tuesday, May 6, 2008
that's what you get when you let your heart win. i defintiely miss dancing. getting back on my feet and start on a new choreography made me realised how much dancing meant to me. it was on sunday when i finally got back to practice after 2 weeks of not attending due to exams.Pat taught us 2 choreos; no air and step back and i definitely loved both choreos. even though i struggled with the no air choreo as it was a continuation with the previous week, i managed to get the steps. only that im not feeling the rhythm as its a lyrical hiphop. i want to sign up for classes at oschool and take reggae. ive lways wanted and loved reggae. i admire their culture and their groove. its really unique and their reggae songs are very catchy with its drumbeats. ohhhhhhhh i wna work after complting n level and im gna use that money to pay the classes. i know some of you will rather go shopping and stuffs. well that was what i thought too but then, if someones is really passionate about something, they are always willing to sacrifice. and thats what im gna do. eventhogh ive been craving to buy new clothes to fill my wardrobe, i still take that dance is my life. clothes and others can wait. im not confident of achieveing my dream. bcse of me having no confidence, thats the reason why im starting it now. Monday, May 5, 2008
cause' tonight im so inspired. i cant believe i did the house chores after not doing it for such a long time. i did spring cleaning for my room and helped mom to sweep the floor and wipe the mirrors when she was out. i didnt went out the whole day, not even school. cause i got no papers for today and tmr. and no school on wed due to marking day. and that means there is no need for me to come to school. and i'll take this 3 days as a short break before resuming for some serious preparation for prelims and the national exams. panic arouses when i come back to school on thurs. its a definite that at least one paper will be given out and i'll find out the worst. im feeling nervous. eventhough ive given my best shot, i know that is was not enough. i mean, never enough. |